Dear Supporters,
I've decided to switch from Blogger to Wordpress because Wordpress gives the author more options and blog perks than Blogger does.
The address is: http://grovemade.wordpress.com
If you guys don't like it as much I may decide to continue here at Blogger, but if everyone finds Wordpress just as user friendly then there I shall stay. Please let me know what you think, or at least if you don't like it as much. : )
See you there!
-Joey
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Expedited Processing
When my mom was a child she used to go to the soda shop down the street from her house and order vanilla soda; she loved vanilla soda. She tells me that it both soothed her stomach with its light, bubbly sweetness as well as her senses with its warm, comforting scent. Recently she has been scouring store shelves in various grocery stores hoping to find her childhood love in a canned, processed form, but to no avail. She changed her tactics to searching for a vanilla flavored syrup like the ones they use at Starbucks, but, again, with no luck. So one day when she asked me if I had any idea where she could find some, I recommended that she make it herself and then explained how she might do this.
Unfortunately that didn't work out so well for her, so when I went over to her house this morning I decided to try to make some before I left for school. Now, mind you, I had never done this before, but it seemed to be turning out alright, so I went for the club soda to give it a try. The bottle of club soda I picked up was a sealed bottle, and when I broke the seal it became apparent that it was a sealed bottle that had been shaken or dropped, because it sprayed everywhere in the one second that it was barely open. My mom and I were dripping with club soda, which my niece found hilarious, and as my mom threw me two towels, one for myself and one to mop up the floor, the phone rang.
My mom picked the cordless phone up off the table, groaned, hit the "talk" button and handed it to me as I looked up.
"Hello?" I said uncertainly, only guessing who the entity on the other end of the phone was.
"Hi, is Joanna there?" came a familiar female voice.
"This is Joanna."
"Hey Joanna, it's Angie from the cancer center," she told me almost apologetically.
I breathed in deep and turned away from my mom, "Hey Angie."
"Dr. Chirayath wants to talk to you about your ultrasound and mammogram results," she told me. I closed my eyes and braced myself, knowing what it meant. "I don't know what your schedule is like today," she continued, "but you could come in at 3:30, or if today isn't good for you you could come in at 1:30 tomorrow or a little later at 2:45."
"No," I say, shaking my head even though I know she can't see me, "I'd rather come in today."
"I thought you probably would," she answered with something like sorrow in her voice. "See you at 3:30."
"Ok, 3:30," I said and hung up the phone.
I turned around and immediately started explaining to my mom how I needed to call Bryan to ask him to get my professor's cell phone number out of my notebook so I could call him to let him know that I wouldn't be able to make it to class, and as I was stumbling over my words and fumbling with the phone, making some haphazard attempt to put it in an occupied space on the table, she grabbed me and pulled me into her, hugging me, and I went completely silent. We just stood there like that for a minute until Emma, who was sitting in her highchair eating and could clearly sense the sudden change in emotional atmosphere, made a very loud noise, breaking the silence. We both released and turned to see her staring at us with her beautiful blue eyes wide open and a look of concern and bewilderment on her face.
I went outside with a pencil and a piece of paper I took out of the garbage. My fingers clumsily scrolled to Bryan's number and hit the "talk" button. There was a lot of noise in the background when he answered, indicating to me that he was nowhere near my notebook. I told him what I needed and he said he'd call me back with it in a few minutes. I sat in the sun on the front porch with the towel my mom had thrown to me slung over my shoulder, waiting. I felt myself shake inside and I closed my eyes and breathed in deep to keep myself together; behind me I heard the door open. "You have to smile now," I thought, and wiped the corners of my eyes. Mom sat down next to me and Emma leaned toward me with her arms open wide, seeming to sense that I needed a hug and knowing that she could make me smile.
I called my professor but he didn't answer, so I sent him a somewhat long and rambling e-mail starting with what I have been doing concerning my research project for class and then detailing the events in my life over the past two and a half weeks. He called me about 20 minutes after I sent it and told me that it was quite possibly the most amazing e-mail he has ever received. He said that I shouldn't worry about missing class, that he couldn't imagine me making any other choice, and that I also shouldn't fret over my project. He ended the conversation by telling me that I'm a wonderful student and that he is very happy to know me. It made me smile.
Later on my mom, sister and I sat in the Cancer and Blood Disease Center talking to Dr. Chirayath. She said that the ultrasound report said that the lump is definitely solid, thus not a cyst, and that the margins are irregular, which is bad. The mammogram report said that the lump is definitely solid, but with no detected irregularities, which is good. Unfortunately, the two reports are conflicting on the irregularity standpoint, and even less fortunately, the ultrasound got very good pictures. Dr. Chirayath suggested that I do one of the following: 1) I could get an ultrasound guided core needle biopsy at the center, because while the lump is small, the ultrasound got "very clear, very good pictures" and would allow for a good sample or 2) I could have it removed by the surgeon that did my lumpectomy, Dr. DuPont, and then analyzed.
I have an appointment with Dr. DuPont at 4:15 tomorrow afternoon.
Unfortunately that didn't work out so well for her, so when I went over to her house this morning I decided to try to make some before I left for school. Now, mind you, I had never done this before, but it seemed to be turning out alright, so I went for the club soda to give it a try. The bottle of club soda I picked up was a sealed bottle, and when I broke the seal it became apparent that it was a sealed bottle that had been shaken or dropped, because it sprayed everywhere in the one second that it was barely open. My mom and I were dripping with club soda, which my niece found hilarious, and as my mom threw me two towels, one for myself and one to mop up the floor, the phone rang.
My mom picked the cordless phone up off the table, groaned, hit the "talk" button and handed it to me as I looked up.
"Hello?" I said uncertainly, only guessing who the entity on the other end of the phone was.
"Hi, is Joanna there?" came a familiar female voice.
"This is Joanna."
"Hey Joanna, it's Angie from the cancer center," she told me almost apologetically.
I breathed in deep and turned away from my mom, "Hey Angie."
"Dr. Chirayath wants to talk to you about your ultrasound and mammogram results," she told me. I closed my eyes and braced myself, knowing what it meant. "I don't know what your schedule is like today," she continued, "but you could come in at 3:30, or if today isn't good for you you could come in at 1:30 tomorrow or a little later at 2:45."
"No," I say, shaking my head even though I know she can't see me, "I'd rather come in today."
"I thought you probably would," she answered with something like sorrow in her voice. "See you at 3:30."
"Ok, 3:30," I said and hung up the phone.
I turned around and immediately started explaining to my mom how I needed to call Bryan to ask him to get my professor's cell phone number out of my notebook so I could call him to let him know that I wouldn't be able to make it to class, and as I was stumbling over my words and fumbling with the phone, making some haphazard attempt to put it in an occupied space on the table, she grabbed me and pulled me into her, hugging me, and I went completely silent. We just stood there like that for a minute until Emma, who was sitting in her highchair eating and could clearly sense the sudden change in emotional atmosphere, made a very loud noise, breaking the silence. We both released and turned to see her staring at us with her beautiful blue eyes wide open and a look of concern and bewilderment on her face.
I went outside with a pencil and a piece of paper I took out of the garbage. My fingers clumsily scrolled to Bryan's number and hit the "talk" button. There was a lot of noise in the background when he answered, indicating to me that he was nowhere near my notebook. I told him what I needed and he said he'd call me back with it in a few minutes. I sat in the sun on the front porch with the towel my mom had thrown to me slung over my shoulder, waiting. I felt myself shake inside and I closed my eyes and breathed in deep to keep myself together; behind me I heard the door open. "You have to smile now," I thought, and wiped the corners of my eyes. Mom sat down next to me and Emma leaned toward me with her arms open wide, seeming to sense that I needed a hug and knowing that she could make me smile.
I called my professor but he didn't answer, so I sent him a somewhat long and rambling e-mail starting with what I have been doing concerning my research project for class and then detailing the events in my life over the past two and a half weeks. He called me about 20 minutes after I sent it and told me that it was quite possibly the most amazing e-mail he has ever received. He said that I shouldn't worry about missing class, that he couldn't imagine me making any other choice, and that I also shouldn't fret over my project. He ended the conversation by telling me that I'm a wonderful student and that he is very happy to know me. It made me smile.
Later on my mom, sister and I sat in the Cancer and Blood Disease Center talking to Dr. Chirayath. She said that the ultrasound report said that the lump is definitely solid, thus not a cyst, and that the margins are irregular, which is bad. The mammogram report said that the lump is definitely solid, but with no detected irregularities, which is good. Unfortunately, the two reports are conflicting on the irregularity standpoint, and even less fortunately, the ultrasound got very good pictures. Dr. Chirayath suggested that I do one of the following: 1) I could get an ultrasound guided core needle biopsy at the center, because while the lump is small, the ultrasound got "very clear, very good pictures" and would allow for a good sample or 2) I could have it removed by the surgeon that did my lumpectomy, Dr. DuPont, and then analyzed.
I have an appointment with Dr. DuPont at 4:15 tomorrow afternoon.
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